Day 675 Almost Oversleeping The LTW Awards and Even Better Than The Dream

Day 675

Almost Oversleeping The LTW Awards Ceremony and Even Better Than The Dream

It wasn't that long ago, when getting out of bed was a chore. I remember in painful detail. I would sit on the side of the bed, sometimes for a few minutes, maybe longer---and summon the strength to raise my 505 pound body to my feet. I was actually afraid of trying to do it too fast, afraid I might strain something, or worse...something much worse. I can't believe how much fear I carried around back then. It doesn't make sense to me now. Why did I ever allow myself to live in that constant fear of an early death? Like a little kid, lost and scared, looking for a way out of this scary place. I was surrounded by supportive family, yet I felt so alone inside, with a self-destructive internal struggle that seemed determined to get me sooner or later. I thought about this many times while sitting on the side of the very bed I jumped out of this morning.

Getting up is a pleasure now. It's effortless, it feels incredible...so amazing, that it's really hard to start the day in a bad mood, simply because of the constant reminder of how different things are these days. I just have to look in the mirror right away, give myself a pinch, smile---and proceed to the coffee pot. I was a little short on time this morning, so I picked up a 170 calorie order of scrambled eggs--grabbed a banana on the way to the door, plus I had a Cliff bar stashed away for mid-morning. I was set in the food department for sure!

By the time mid-day rolled around, I quickly realized that my production duties in radio land would absolutely keep me from writing during my lunch hour. I had plans this evening. Ponca City Medical Center has once again asked me to host the "Lose To Win" awards, and I really needed to be there a little before 6pm---decked out in the tuxedo from Sprays Jewelry. I decided to get as much done as possible, then race home and write, then sneak in a little nap before showering and changing for the awards program.

At some point on my trip home, I realized how tired I was becoming. My body was telling me, better---My body was ordering me to take a nap. But wait---today is weigh day! No problem, I thought...I'll just sleep for an hour and fifteen minutes, get up at 4pm--write this blog, go to the doctors office for my official weigh-in, shower and dress---and be perfectly on time. It was a nice thought while it lasted. I over-slept my alarm, waking just in time to jump up quickly, get cleaned up, dressed, and drive straight to the theatre. Weigh day would have to be postponed until tomorrow--and the blog? Uh, it would have to wait. I had a job to do tonight.

I was putting on the tuxedo shirt when I noticed something crazy. The shirt wasn't an extra-large. I put it on the bed and I started to feel a little nervous. What if it doesn't fit? Will I have to wear a plain black casual shirt underneath the jacket, like I opted for last weekend? No, no, NO! It had to fit, I must have a full tuxedo for this event. So I tried on the size large shirt, and...it fit. It actually fit rather well. I could even sit down without popping the buttons off. I didn't have much time to enjoy this NSV, I had to leave for the theatre...like, now! Can you believe it? A Large...that's nuts in a very good way.

The awards were amazing. 77% of those that participated, finished the challenge---well over 3000 pounds were lost in nine weeks, and checks totaling over five-thousand dollars were handed to the winners, with the top ten in each category being recognized and awarded. It was an event that was such a pleasure to MC---and the audience was outstanding, full of people feeling great about themselves in so many new ways. You want an amazing energy in a room? Just fill the room with people who have lost weight and are feeling better and in more control of their lives than perhaps ever before. You'll feel it, trust me!

Several new tuxedo pictures were taken tonight. I love these, because---well, I feel like a million bucks in that thing. You know? And when I think about how horrible and ugly I felt at my heaviest---and how opposite I feel now...it's just...hard to find words. I once dreamed of this transformation and now the differences in me are even better than those dreams. And of course, those dreams always focused on the physical transformation---oh what a surprise to discover that the most important changes, the most dramatic, the life changing forever stuff---are the changes you can't see in a picture.

Thank you for reading. Goodnight and...

Good Choices,
Sean


Before with my daughters!


A year ago at the first LTW Awards--in the tux--May 19th, 2009 Over 100 more pounds lost since that night.


I hate this before picture. OK--really, it's a love/hate thing---Because I'm no longer that guy putting the cake on the table. Speaking of cake---I almost forgot---Cake and punch was served after the awards. Yes, I asked for a middle piece, easy on the icing--cut in half. 150, 200 calories tops...and so very good!


On the phone afterward. Talking with Kenz!


Light was kind of strange--But I love this dog---Scooby is the best!


Nice outdoor shot. Courtney said it was her favorite...so, it's mine too!


On stage at the Poncan Theatre--after the ceremony, posing---completely. ;)


Tipping my new pink stainless steel water bottle given to me by Ponca City Medical Center's Healthy Woman program


A large...wow, really? A Large---I swear, I bet it's been since age 11. I still can't believe it---but there's the tag...you see that? I was comfortably wearing a large!!!!!! I just want to shout it!