Day 556 This Isn't A "Show" and Letting Go of Insecurities

Day 556

This Isn't A "Show" and Letting Go of Insecurities

I've been thinking about tomorrow all day today. I have two speaking engagements at Conoco-Phillips. It's a private engagement for their employees. I'll be talking about my weight loss experiences. It's very important for you and anyone that will hear me speak to understand something. I'm not a weight loss guru or an expert of any kind. I don't know everything and I'm far from perfect. But I do have a story to share! And it's a story that will identify the keys to my success along this road. I have a nervous excitement building about this event and this energy is a good thing. My stage experience is primarily stand-up comedy, and some of my most memorable and enjoyable performances included this pre-show nervous energy. It's normal. And the great thing about this? This isn't a "show," this is as real as it gets. And that realness makes it a thousand times better than any stand-up performance I've ever given.

My best days are the ones that start with a solid foundation, a routine of what I know is right and good. For me, it means getting up shortly before 4am, and I really don't like that---but it's imperative for a great start. And a great start makes all the difference in the world. I woke up, did my morning non-weighted strength training exercises, prepared coffee and a good breakfast, wrote my blog page, showered and dressed and was on the air by 6am. When I take the time for this routine, I have a better show and a better attitude that carries me throughout the day. It doesn't happen everyday, but it should. I like the powerful confidence I felt today. Good choices indeed. I need to make those choices on a more regular basis! I've heard consistency is a vital element along this road...hmmm, where have I heard that? ;)

I toured our new broadcasting studios today. The construction crews are very busy and far from finished, but oh boy---it's looking incredible. I wouldn't be as excited about this change if I were still over 500 pounds. Why? Because these new studios are window front studios, kind of like the Today Show. People will be able to stand on the sidewalk and watch us work. I'm not uncomfortable with that idea anymore. I would have hated it before this transformation. I look forward to it now. They've even painted the window with my name and the name of the KLOR morning personality. Very cool, very cool my friend. We'll be like zoo animals on display. We'll try to behave in our exhibit, I mean studios.

I've decided to NOT wear my too big sport coat to the speaking event tomorrow. I'm not even going to wear an over-shirt. If you're a regular reader of this blog, you know all about my psychological hang-ups and body image issues. I've written about them many times, and perhaps you understand too, maybe you have the same issues. I spent my entire life trying to dress in a fashion that would best present my 500 pound self. That's a very hard habit to break, even though I'm lightyears from that old appearance. I still want to put on that over shirt, or wear a shirt that's just a little too big and baggy. But no---I'm not letting myself off the hook on this event. I'm dressing casual and comfortable in normal fitting clothes that, despite what my crazy imagination conjures up, best showcase my transformation. There self, take that!

They will be video taping the event and I've requested a copy. I also hope to have pictures to post from the event. I'll of course share as much as I can right here in these pages.

A reader yesterday asked if I was still doing 1500 calories a day. I'm actually doing 1800 now. Every now and then I fall below that number, but never below 1500. Thank you for asking!

Thank you for reading. Your support is so wonderful to me. Goodnight and...

Good Choices,
Sean