Day 364 The Beautiful Changes Inside and Struggling To Hit 1500 Calories

Day 364

The Beautiful Changes Inside and Struggling To Hit 1500 Calories

My Saturday stole seven hours of my Sunday, so with Saturday night ending at 7am---I knew that Sunday was going to be an altered day. I still managed to be up by noon, only because Irene had to leave town by 1pm to meet a friend in Stillwater and I wanted to have lunch with her before she left. We enjoyed some tacos at our dining room table before Irene left, then Courtney and I grabbed a script and headed for the living room to see if I'd forgotten anything from the night, er, uh...morning before.

I sincerely have to thank everyone in my life for being so supportive of me. Accepting the responsibility of a stage production seemed like the last thing in the world that I needed to add to my already busy schedule. But with everyone from family to co-workers, and even my boss—all understanding how monumentally important this is to my journey, even if they think I'm crazy for the schedule, they still understand and support. You see, this is much more than a play to me. It's also a symbol of my freedom from obesity. Not only am I breaking free from the chains of being nearly 300 pounds overweight, I'm determined to do all of the things I couldn't before just to show morbid obesity who's in charge now. And to remind myself that I can. I don't have to be that reserved, insecure, self-loathing guy anymore. Losing weight is giving me the freedom and the confidence to be me, the real me, possibly for the first time in my life. The transformation I speak of within these pages is so much bigger than any physical change. Yes, the physical changes surely provide some wonderful moments and “wow” reactions from people around me. But the changes inside, oh the beautiful changes inside! These internal changes provide me with an endless supply of my own personal “wow” reactions. I'm very thankful for the understanding from everyone in my life. I'm a very lucky guy indeed.

Irene's plans called for her to enjoy dinner with her friends. It was just Courtney and me for dinner here at the house. I grabbed a couple of chicken breast from the freezer and started to take them to the outdoor grill before deciding that this was a job for the George Foreman Grill on the counter top. I whipped up a couple of servings of mashed potatoes and warmed some green beans and in not long at all a completely satisfying and low calorie meal was on the table. The breast were small, about 150 calories each, the potatoes—130, and the green beans with an added slice of American cheese melted over—checked in at 50 calories per serving. 330 calories for the whole plate, not bad at all, and delicious!

Play rehearsal was fantastic. Some scenes were better than others, but it's really coming together. This is going to be a fine production. I arrived home from rehearsal with a whopping 800 calories remaining for the day. Oops. I mismanaged my calories the other way today. I didn't eat enough earlier! Now it was nearly 11pm and I was sitting at only 700 calories. I knew I wasn't going to force down 800 calories before bed, but I did make myself a mushroom with extra cheese pizza on a pita for 220 and then I grabbed a banana and a dream bar ice cream treat. All of this brought my calorie total to 1,090, still under my “required” 1200---But oh well, I'll have to manage better next time! It's so funny that I had a “problem” getting to 1500 today, that's crazy really. Below 1200 isn't really good for the metabolism, but seriously---that's a rarity.

Monday will be Day 365! But Tuesday the 15th is officially my one year anniversary. I guess I'm celebrating both days. The 365th day of my journey and then the actual anniversary of Day 1. If you're new to these writings, I encourage you to go back and read from Day 1. That's the only way to fully understand the changes and epiphanies I've experienced along this road. Those experiences and epiphanies come one day at a time. I didn't know how I would do this on Day 1. I was walking on faith and sheer determination. But what has unfolded is nothing short of a miracle to me. Day by day a complete understanding of where I always went wrong before became completely clear. And with that clarity came a very simple approach to winning this time. I hope you invest the time to read if you have the chance.

It's Monday morning as I write this Sunday post. I've got to jump in the shower and head to the studio for my morning radio show. Tonight's Day 365 post will be a wonderful thing, I can't wait! Thank you for reading. Goodnight and...

Good Choices,
Sean